When I was a kid, in order to become an Eagle Scout you needed to earn 21 merit badges. Of those, some were required and some were elective. I remember my electives included things like ice skating and music (which were, conveniently, things I did anyway outside of Scouting). The required merit badges were things like First Aid (no surprise), Citizenship in the Community, Swimming and Lifesaving.
At Scout camp one summer, somewhere in the study for these last two, I vividly remember fulfilling a requirement that involved jumping into the water with my clothes on. The task was to remove a pair of blue jeans while in the water, tie the legs together, blow air inside, and then tie the waist and wear it around the neck — that is, to create a makeshift life vest. Real-life MacGyver stuff. Of all the activities associated with these merit badges, I found it to be the hardest — and the most memorable.
Looking back, one of the things I most appreciate about that episode was that, like many other activities in Scouting, the lesson was this: You already have what you need, at least a lot of the time. It’s right here, if you can muster the imagination to sense it. Don’t have exactly the piece of rope you need? Take two smaller pieces and put them together with a square knot (if they’re the same thickness) or a sheet bend (if they’re different thicknesses). Down a tentpole? You can make a lean-to. Don’t have bread for French toast? You can make scrambled eggs. And, in the case of swimming with my jeans on: Don’t have a life preserver? Make your pants into one.
This doesn’t work in every situation, of course. There are times when we simply don’t have the necessities, emergencies of the highest order. But what Scouting taught me through these lessons at a young age was an orientation toward resilience, ingenuity, improvisation, faith and trust — that we have more than we might think at first, that there are more possibilities here than meet the eye, that at times of crisis we can access the means of our salvation more readily than we might assume at first blush.
“These are the names of the children of Israel who came to Egypt with Jacob, each one coming with his household.” Commenting on this first verse of the Book of Exodus in his Degel Machane Ephraim, Rabbi Moshe Chaim Ephraim of Sudilkov (1748-1800) offers a powerful teaching about this kind of orientation, which he links to God’s promise to Jacob a few chapters earlier: “I will go down with you to Egypt and I Myself will bring you up” (Gen. 46:4). In both cases, the Degel says, the divine Presence (Shekhinah) is the very means of ascent. “It is like one who wants to go down into a deep pit but is worried what will happen when he wants to come back up. So he takes a ladder with him into the pit. The Shekhinah is the ladder.” Like the jeans life preserver, the means of our salvation — on a spiritual level, at least — are more accessible than we might realize. (Thanks to my colleague Rabbi Sam Feinsmith, who translated and wrote about this teaching in our IJS text study series several years ago.)
I hesitate to share this teaching in light of the devastation in Southern California this week. So many have lost so much, and, if offered without care, it could land in a way that sounds dismissive. So I want to be clear that my intention in offering this Torah is not at all to minimize the pain and suffering, or to simply preach self-reliance. That is not, I believe, what the Degel is saying, and it’s certainly not what I’m trying to say.
Rather, I think this Torah might serve as an invitation to those who are suffering, and to all of us who are witnesses and who carry the burdens that are uniquely ours during these dark winter months: to find some quiet amidst the chaos and, in that quiet, sense if we can perceive the presence of a ladder up. The ladder may not reach all the way out, we might perceive just a rung or two — in our own minds and hearts, in the care of friends and loved ones, in the support of caregivers and strangers. But we can give ourselves permission to try to sense the ladder, and in doing so can be agents of our own liberation.
As we say so often, this is why we practice: for moments when life is hardest, when the spiritual struggle is most challenging. As the Degel and the Torah itself remind us, our people drinks from deep, inexhaustible, wells of spiritual strength. Those wells can be available to us — even when we’re treading water with our jeans on. May they provide nourishment and comfort to all those who need them today.